Word Vomit

Sorry is Too Small a Word

Dear Inner Child, Being trapped in my own personal hell seems to be the theme of 2018. Every minute has become a battle between giving in and finding a way out. If I’ve left you feeling unheard, uncared for or unloved, it isn’t because it’s what you deserve. It’s merely a reflection of how messy,... Continue Reading →

The Evolution of Deconstruction

5/27 Some days I wish I could love someone else the way I love you. Other days I’m grateful to know my mirror exists and I’m not in this world entirely alone. Now if only I could combine those two emotions and be satisfied in what I do and don’t have without feeling ungrateful, lonely... Continue Reading →

The Heart of the Matter

All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning again. 13 Reasons Why Season 2...it seems so paradigm, drastic and societal. But every one of their stories is real...for someone. So here I sit crawling back in time to a segment of my reality that tears have never shed for before. Who do we think... Continue Reading →

Codependency

"Two lost angels discover salvation." I've come to realize from years of heartbreak, both in friendships and relationships, that respect and loyalty are not traits that come naturally to anyone - myself included. I was convinced that they had to be taught and learned through life experience alone. But time isn't what builds character. The... Continue Reading →

The Sandman

I'm starting to think that these terrible nightmares I've been having will become something I just get used to living with. What in the...fuuuuuuck, no. I don't want to feel like every time I find the light, something pulls me back into the dark. You can't hide from your fucking self. Occasionally I do try though,... Continue Reading →

Feeding the Darkness 💀

Is loneliness so real that it can make you want to wish you didn't feel anything at all? Logic reminds me that it's all in my head, but my heart still breaks into pieces otherwise. Sometimes I contemplate staying here - in this dark place. Since when did I become so haunted with memories of... Continue Reading →

DAW

You ever have those relationships in your life that taught you things before you knew what those lessons even were? I've been blessed to have many of those on this journey, some much greater than others. High school was an experience I'd like to forget. But without DAW I don't think I would have made... Continue Reading →

Sunday Shit

I don't think I've ever had a lesson as committed as this one - control is actually the ability to have none. Since when did patience, balance and vulnerability come to exist in one sentence, surely never for me. Not to mention a part of what's holding one back from every aspect of their life.... Continue Reading →

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