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The Heart of the Matter

All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning again. 13 Reasons Why Season 2...it seems so paradigm, drastic and societal. But every one of their stories is real...for someone. So here I sit crawling back in time to a segment of my reality that tears have never shed for before. Who do we think... Continue Reading →

Codependency

"Two lost angels discover salvation." I've come to realize from years of heartbreak, both in friendships and relationships, that respect and loyalty are not traits that come naturally to anyone - myself included. I was convinced that they had to be taught and learned through life experience alone. But time isn't what builds character. The... Continue Reading →

The Sandman

I'm starting to think that these terrible nightmares I've been having will become something I just get used to living with. What in the...fuuuuuuck, no. I don't want to feel like every time I find the light, something pulls me back into the dark. You can't hide from your fucking self. Occasionally I do try though,... Continue Reading →

Feeding the Darkness đź’€

Is loneliness so real that it can make you want to wish you didn't feel anything at all? Logic reminds me that it's all in my head, but my heart still breaks into pieces otherwise. Sometimes I contemplate staying here - in this dark place. Since when did I become so haunted with memories of... Continue Reading →

DAW

You ever have those relationships in your life that taught you things before you knew what those lessons even were? I've been blessed to have many of those on this journey, some much greater than others. High school was an experience I'd like to forget. But without DAW I don't think I would have made... Continue Reading →

Sunday Shit

I don't think I've ever had a lesson as committed as this one - control is actually the ability to have none. Since when did patience, balance and vulnerability come to exist in one sentence, surely never for me. Not to mention a part of what's holding one back from every aspect of their life.... Continue Reading →

10/10

Free yourself. For reasons unbenounced to me, I had myself convinced that the only things left to let go of were current energies, not past ones. I admittedly preach to myself and all of my loved ones that being patient with oneself is the most important habit to form. My standards for myself are growing... Continue Reading →

The Fuck to My Gives

Attachment: the final toxin that's so deeply embedded in my makeup, the ball to my chain, the fuck to my gives. I keep asking myself how it's even possible to love someone or something without having any kind of attachment to it and of course even if I find the right words, the doing part is... Continue Reading →

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