The Evolution of Deconstruction

5/27 Some days I wish I could love someone else the way I love you. Other days I’m grateful to know my mirror exists and I’m not in this world entirely alone. Now if only I could combine those two emotions and be satisfied in what I do and don’t have without feeling ungrateful, lonely... Continue Reading →

Codependency

"Two lost angels discover salvation." I've come to realize from years of heartbreak, both in friendships and relationships, that respect and loyalty are not traits that come naturally to anyone - myself included. I was convinced that they had to be taught and learned through life experience alone. But time isn't what builds character. The... Continue Reading →

Feeding the Darkness 💀

Is loneliness so real that it can make you want to wish you didn't feel anything at all? Logic reminds me that it's all in my head, but my heart still breaks into pieces otherwise. Sometimes I contemplate staying here - in this dark place. Since when did I become so haunted with memories of... Continue Reading →

DAW

You ever have those relationships in your life that taught you things before you knew what those lessons even were? I've been blessed to have many of those on this journey, some much greater than others. High school was an experience I'd like to forget. But without DAW I don't think I would have made... Continue Reading →

Sunday Shit

I don't think I've ever had a lesson as committed as this one - control is actually the ability to have none. Since when did patience, balance and vulnerability come to exist in one sentence, surely never for me. Not to mention a part of what's holding one back from every aspect of their life.... Continue Reading →

10/10

Free yourself. For reasons unbenounced to me, I had myself convinced that the only things left to let go of were current energies, not past ones. I admittedly preach to myself and all of my loved ones that being patient with oneself is the most important habit to form. My standards for myself are growing... Continue Reading →

The Fuck to My Gives

Attachment: the final toxin that's so deeply embedded in my makeup, the ball to my chain, the fuck to my gives. I keep asking myself how it's even possible to love someone or something without having any kind of attachment to it and of course even if I find the right words, the doing part is... Continue Reading →

Set That Shit on Fire

"When it is all finished, you will discover it was never random." Eventually I knew I would be back here - writing in a moment of duress. I mean it's where my affection for it all began, so naturally. Does anyone else despise crying as much as I do? Especially when you don't know exactly... Continue Reading →

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