Sorry is Too Small a Word

Dear Inner Child, Being trapped in my own personal hell seems to be the theme of 2018. Every minute has become a battle between giving in and finding a way out. If I’ve left you feeling unheard, uncared for or unloved, it isn’t because it’s what you deserve. It’s merely a reflection of how messy,... Continue Reading →

Codependency

"Two lost angels discover salvation." I've come to realize from years of heartbreak, both in friendships and relationships, that respect and loyalty are not traits that come naturally to anyone - myself included. I was convinced that they had to be taught and learned through life experience alone. But time isn't what builds character. The... Continue Reading →

The Sandman

I'm starting to think that these terrible nightmares I've been having will become something I just get used to living with. What in the...fuuuuuuck, no. I don't want to feel like every time I find the light, something pulls me back into the dark. You can't hide from your fucking self. Occasionally I do try though,... Continue Reading →

Feeding the Darkness 💀

Is loneliness so real that it can make you want to wish you didn't feel anything at all? Logic reminds me that it's all in my head, but my heart still breaks into pieces otherwise. Sometimes I contemplate staying here - in this dark place. Since when did I become so haunted with memories of... Continue Reading →

Sunday Shit

I don't think I've ever had a lesson as committed as this one - control is actually the ability to have none. Since when did patience, balance and vulnerability come to exist in one sentence, surely never for me. Not to mention a part of what's holding one back from every aspect of their life.... Continue Reading →

10/10

Free yourself. For reasons unbenounced to me, I had myself convinced that the only things left to let go of were current energies, not past ones. I admittedly preach to myself and all of my loved ones that being patient with oneself is the most important habit to form. My standards for myself are growing... Continue Reading →

The Fuck to My Gives

Attachment: the final toxin that's so deeply embedded in my makeup, the ball to my chain, the fuck to my gives. I keep asking myself how it's even possible to love someone or something without having any kind of attachment to it and of course even if I find the right words, the doing part is... Continue Reading →

Set That Shit on Fire

"When it is all finished, you will discover it was never random." Eventually I knew I would be back here - writing in a moment of duress. I mean it's where my affection for it all began, so naturally. Does anyone else despise crying as much as I do? Especially when you don't know exactly... Continue Reading →

Let Reality Be Reality

Surrender. What do you do when you don't know what to do? When you see one thing, but feel another? When you want something and it's so far out of your reach? Breathe. When outside your powerless, but inside your powerful. Where questions don't always have answers, but truth sets you free. Search within. What... Continue Reading →

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