Sorry is Too Small a Word

Dear Inner Child, Being trapped in my own personal hell seems to be the theme of 2018. Every minute has become a battle between giving in and finding a way out. If I’ve left you feeling unheard, uncared for or unloved, it isn’t because it’s what you deserve. It’s merely a reflection of how messy,... Continue Reading →

The Evolution of Deconstruction

5/27 Some days I wish I could love someone else the way I love you. Other days I’m grateful to know my mirror exists and I’m not in this world entirely alone. Now if only I could combine those two emotions and be satisfied in what I do and don’t have without feeling ungrateful, lonely... Continue Reading →

Feeding the Darkness 💀

Is loneliness so real that it can make you want to wish you didn't feel anything at all? Logic reminds me that it's all in my head, but my heart still breaks into pieces otherwise. Sometimes I contemplate staying here - in this dark place. Since when did I become so haunted with memories of... Continue Reading →

10/10

Free yourself. For reasons unbenounced to me, I had myself convinced that the only things left to let go of were current energies, not past ones. I admittedly preach to myself and all of my loved ones that being patient with oneself is the most important habit to form. My standards for myself are growing... Continue Reading →

Dark Night of the Soul

The “dark night of the soul” is a term used to describe what one could call a collapse of a perceived meaning in life. The nights which the soul experiences are the necessary purgations on the path to Divine union, of which there are two: the first is of the sensory or sensitive part of... Continue Reading →

Fuck You Fear

The day I began this blog, I made a commitment to myself. That I would break down every wall, brick by brick, so I could crawl my way through the wreckage to that overflowing door, where all of my biggest fears have been hiding in the deepest of darkness. Having understood my choice on this... Continue Reading →

A Journey Without to Within

Fear and pain are one in the same. Have you ever been so afraid of pain that you numb yourself to all feelings entirely? Happiness doesn't even find you because you're not in the same dimension. Laughter becomes a memory of a time when you did not know what it was to be hurt on... Continue Reading →

May 25, 2013

I used to write about emotions, like the outside world didn't matter. Like words that escaped from my head, out my finger tips could not in any way be harmful if it's pure and honest. Black and white, it's my weak spot. There's so much room in this grey area, but do I even want... Continue Reading →

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