Sorry is Too Small a Word

Dear Inner Child, Being trapped in my own personal hell seems to be the theme of 2018. Every minute has become a battle between giving in and finding a way out. If I’ve left you feeling unheard, uncared for or unloved, it isn’t because it’s what you deserve. It’s merely a reflection of how messy,... Continue Reading →

The Sandman

I'm starting to think that these terrible nightmares I've been having will become something I just get used to living with. What in the...fuuuuuuck, no. I don't want to feel like every time I find the light, something pulls me back into the dark. You can't hide from your fucking self. Occasionally I do try though,... Continue Reading →

Feeding the Darkness 💀

Is loneliness so real that it can make you want to wish you didn't feel anything at all? Logic reminds me that it's all in my head, but my heart still breaks into pieces otherwise. Sometimes I contemplate staying here - in this dark place. Since when did I become so haunted with memories of... Continue Reading →

DAW

You ever have those relationships in your life that taught you things before you knew what those lessons even were? I've been blessed to have many of those on this journey, some much greater than others. High school was an experience I'd like to forget. But without DAW I don't think I would have made... Continue Reading →

Sunday Shit

I don't think I've ever had a lesson as committed as this one - control is actually the ability to have none. Since when did patience, balance and vulnerability come to exist in one sentence, surely never for me. Not to mention a part of what's holding one back from every aspect of their life.... Continue Reading →

Set That Shit on Fire

"When it is all finished, you will discover it was never random." Eventually I knew I would be back here - writing in a moment of duress. I mean it's where my affection for it all began, so naturally. Does anyone else despise crying as much as I do? Especially when you don't know exactly... Continue Reading →

Grandflower

Grandflower (noun): a grandparent who helps you blossom into something beautiful by believing in you every step of the way.   I've been wanting to write about one of my biggest sources of strength for a while now, but every time I think I can bring myself to start, I grow into a giant tree... Continue Reading →

What Has Been Isn’t What Will Be

Everyday I tell myself that the past doesn't define my future. That what has been isn't what will be. At what point do your words hold true and manifestation becomes your reality? Maybe it's in those sudden deep breaths you take to calm your anxiety while driving home from a night with friends. Maybe it's... Continue Reading →

Dark Night of the Soul

The “dark night of the soul” is a term used to describe what one could call a collapse of a perceived meaning in life. The nights which the soul experiences are the necessary purgations on the path to Divine union, of which there are two: the first is of the sensory or sensitive part of... Continue Reading →

Deuces to my Ego

It took me 30 years to realize that loving yourself is a daily choice. I'm talking completely unconditional love. Not just the divine things you are, but with all your demons, your scars and your madness. It's hard work to be at your most vulnerable, your most powerful, your most honest and your most accepting.... Continue Reading →

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